Please excuse the previous entry...

Please excuse the grammatical errors in my previous entry. I forgot to tell you that I am extremely tired and only half of my brain is working today.

WOWZA!!!! Not a good writer today.

Will this day ever end....?

When you look at the clock every two minutes it doesn't seem that time goes by very fast. I took an early lunch today and this afternoon seems to be creeping by.

Things are much slower today and although I am enjoying a bit of down time, I keep thinking about the millions of things I could be doing at home today. I have been known to throw huge b-day parties for my kids and because we were in the processing of moving last year I didn't get to have a birthday party for my baby girl. I am going to make up for it this year. She is turning three and although I wanted to host a fancy tea party I have been forced to have a Dora and Diego party. (NO FUN, FOR MOMMY (S0-So) that is what I call her)

Of course, we are having a few people out ( only a few b/c that is all I know here) and Tim is not the biggest socialite in the world. At times like this I do miss being around my family. As a kid we had family gathering consistently and I wanted that for my kids, but unfortunately they probably won't have the same respect for the extended family until as I do.

Anyway, enough boring stuff gotta run.

So it goes...

I can't imagine how the rest of this day is going to go....

Here is how it started.

My baby girl was clingy when I dropped her off (made me really sad):(

On the train the "hot'' guy was on there OOOhhhh LA LA!!! He is "hot"
(Tim I hope your not reading this);)

Then I got to work:

Can you find me this contract and sale agreement and give me details? AHHH!!!

Thanks for the details, now I need more details, so run around like a chicken with your head cut off investigating every detail of this lease agreement until I have everything I want. Thanks!!! You're great!!!! (AHHHH!!!! Calgon take me away)

Guest Counsel arrives (Hi nice to meet you, let me know if you need anything)!!!
Dinner Reservations ( No problem, except the three restaurants selected have no availabilty) AHHHH!!!!! Ok, use my influence and get one. Whewww!!! Got one.

Is it 5 yet?

Excuse me, but are you fat or what....

Yes, I am fat. I have totally let myself go for far too long. Now i'm afraid it is too late to get my old self back. Not only have a gained 80lbs. (yes that is right) in the past 3 years, but I have also grown an unusually nasty attitude. WTF!!!!!!

To be honest I didn't realize what I looked like to other people until I saw a picture of myself. AHHHH!!!! So Scary. It made me so sad I just burst into tears. I know that my mental health has drastically changed and how I view myself has gotten so misguided, but I still have'nt done much about it. I have compiled a list of the top 5 reasons that I have gotten so fat.

1. McDonalds
2. McDonalds
3. McDonalds
4. Laziness
5. Having a baby and making excuses regarding "the baby blues" and its contribution to my weight problem.

I know that having this weight is complety unhealthy, but I am addicted. I have grown an addiction to fast food. I love it.... I really do. Rarely used to eat three years ago, don't know what happened.

In January I made the committment to makeover my "food" life. I decided to ban myself from fast food and surprisingly enough. It has worked. I must admit that I have had it occasionally, you know a burger here and there, but can you blame me. Yum!!!

I have decided that inorder to reep the rewards of making over my diet, it is time to start excercising. Starting tomorrow I am going to start going to work out over my lunch. I am dreading this so much. Just having to get ready again and put on makeup and hose and trousers and all that jazz, just doesn't please me, but I must do something and by God!! I am so tired of saying that I am going to do something and then never do it.

Wish me luck!!!! The beauty about being human and living in America is that we can do whatever we want and be whomever we choose.

I know..I know... I just don't have much to say

I was totally into this blog this at first, but now its luster is wearing thin. My friend has all of her (Blog) favorites listed to the left side of her blog and I am on there. I think i'm on there because we are friends, not because I have anything interesting to say. I want to be on other "faves" lists, but in order for that to happen I actually have to write.

So here goes nothing......

I'm just eating some pretzels, drinking a diet dp and wishing I were in Fiji and weighed 110. Instead i'm at my desk coordinating a trip for a big time witness on a big time case thinking how easy it would be to leave a trip detail out. Visa (check), airfare (check), hotel (check), rental (check), dinner reservations (check), wiping butts (check). Oh! Wait that wasn't supposed to be in there.

The glorious sun is out...... I LOVE IT!!!!! I LOVE IT!!!!!

Gotta run really gotta work.

To a friend in need....

Gratitude by Nicole Nordeman

Send some rain, would You send some rain?'
Cause the earth is dry and needs to drink again
And the sun is high and we are sinking in the shade
Would You send a cloud, thunder long and loud?
Let the sky grow black and send some mercy down
Surely You can see that we are thirsty and afraid
But maybe not, not today
Maybe You'll provide in other ways
And if that's the case . . .

We'll give thanks to You
With gratitude
For lessons learned in how to thirst for You
How to bless the very sun that warms our face
If You never send us rain

Daily bread, give us daily bread
Bless our bodies, keep our children fed
Fill our cups, then fill them up again tonight
Wrap us up and warm us through
Tucked away beneath our sturdy roofs
Let us slumber safe from danger's view this time
Or maybe not, not today
Maybe You'll provide in other ways
And if that's the case . . .

We'll give thanks to You
With gratitude
A lesson learned to hunger after You
That a starry sky offers a better view if no roof is overhead And if we never taste
that bread

Oh, the differences that often are between
What we want and what we really need

So grant us peace, Jesus, grant us peace
Move our hearts to hear a single beat
Between alibis and enemies tonight
Or maybe not, not today
Peace might be another world away
And if that's the case . . .

We'll give thanks to You
With gratitude
For lessons learned in how to trust in You
That we are blessed beyond what we could ever dream
In abundance or in need
And if You never grant us peace

But Jesus, would You please . . .

For my friend...

woof!!! woof!!!!

Ode' To Chanda Leah

Oh!! Chanda Leah why did you go
I miss your hair as white as snow
Your princess dress so pink and bright
Like a star Shining through night

The tricks you had in your repatore
Were displayed for Jay Leno on Tour
Don't fret I burn a candle for you
In hopes that my admiration glows through

Your splendor is displayed
By your namesake who was made
On the day that Glennis and the dad.
Created Chanda and was glad

Her hair, not white as snow
but instead a muted red glow
She saves lives by doing tricks
To local patrons by sucking (beeep)!!!

With this said you should be proud
That your legacy is living out loud.

Always and forever.....

Luv ya M2 peace out

It is sunny today!!!!

10min. Closer to a wrinkle

I need the sun!!!!! I need the sun!!!!!! I NEED THE SUN!!!!!!

I am severly antsy right now. I want to look out at the sky and see the sun, but once again it is dreary and rainy. I think I might have to go sit in a tanning booth for 10min. just so I can feel the glow. At this point I don't care about the artifical UV rays and my wrinkles. I just want to feel that glow and eventhough the smell of the tanning place makes me sick, I will take it. It isn't a matter of want. At this point it is necessity.

My coffee made me jittery this morning. Maybe I will quit the junk.

Sorry my blogs have been so bad lately. I am telling you I need the sun.

A Foul Mood....

I can't seem to get out of this funk. I'm in such a bad place lately, and I really don't know why. I come by pessimism naturally, but dang I have been getting on my own nerves lately with all of this negativity.

Part of my issue is that I am surrounded by nut jobs. People here are so weird!!!!

Another issue is the terrible news that is out there and how parents are killing their children by doing the most horrid things imaginable. I really have a problem with people who don't take care of their children appropriately. I also have a huge problem with people not having to pay for their mistakes.

The state of this world is extremely scary. Thank God I will not be bringing in more children into this world. I hate to think of the atrocities my two children will have to endure in their lifetime. It makes me sad to think about the lack of moral fiber amongst Americans and that ridiculous "Anything Goes Attitude"

Here's a message: "Ya'll Need JESUS"

On that note: Maybe I need a little more Jesus....I'm going to church Sunday.

Outtie 5000

Long Hair

One of my biggest pet peeves is men who are going bald and try to salvage their dignity by growing their how out. I absolutely hate this. If you are going bald you should cut your hair as short as possible making it less noticeable that the hair is thining.

My husband informed me yesterday that he was growing his hair out, and guess what he is going bald.

I don't get it.

Bam....Lights Out!!!

Today started out like any other, I was rushing around, out the door, to the sitters, drinking a hot cup o' joe, on the commuter train, staring at the skeleton with Anorexia (feel so bad for her) and then off to the big B to attend a two hour meeting.

As I'm sitting in the meeting listening to the numerous financial dealings and litigation cases looming I realize I would rather be in Cancun sipping a Corona and resting the day away, but instead duty calls and I need the paycheck.

When I got back to my desk my phone was blinking with VM's from my son's school. The one day I forget my blackberry at my desk I get 5 calls from them. It was an emergency and he had gone face first into a pole. Oh! NO!!! It had happened at 8:45 and it was 10:30. At that moment I felt like the worst mom in the world. 2hrs. It took 2hrs. for them to get a hold of me. They had tried every number I had given them, my e-mail, my husbands numbers and his e-mail (he just happened to be unavailable) and finally reached my father-in-law.

I met them at the doctor's office and met a new version of my boy. One with a giant goose egg (3in. in diameter), a swollen eye that looked to be painted with royal blue eyeshadow, a huge abrasion on his cheek, and a nose with crusty blood. My God!!!! I about had a heart attack. I didn't panic, because believe it or not I seem to be very calm in these situations, but I couldn't help but worry. After having him checked out, it was determined that he would be fine and that I should just monitor him for signs of a concussion. It is now 2:00 and so far so good.

Maybe, tomorrow will be better?

Cranky....

I'm cranky and tired today because I stayed up way too late watching Rock of Love 2. That has got to be one of the most ridiculous shows on earth. I Love IT!!!! If you have ever watched the show then you know how incredibly stupid those girls are. I am not sure what drugs their mother did while they were in utero, but damn...no brain cells at all. It really makes me value my life just a little bit more.

I need coffee.
Bye

I'm Old and I didn't know it....

As a Gen-Xer, I am right on the cusp of learning all the cool texting lingo and have been diligently deciphering codes that I pulled off the internet. At this point I am starting to think I am getting a good handle on it, and then out jumps this alarming abbreviation ST&D!!!! So I'm thinking it is some sexual reference like S&M because if you know me, then you know my mind is constantly in the gutter, but I later find out it is "Stop Texting and Drive"!!! OMG!!!! I am so chaining my kids to their bed and hiring a driver to escort them everywhere.

I can just see Sophie sitting in the car with all of her over developed, highly processed, heavily make-uped friends saying "Omg!!! Like, stop texting and drive"; "Did you kiss Carson last night"; "heeehheeehhee"; "Can you believe what Emma did at that party!" Just thinking about it gives me anxiety. Can someone please get me a Xanax STAT!!!!!

Whatever happened to frilly dresses and letting little girls where big bows and having unshaved legs until seventh grade?

Whatever happened to girls not getting their periods until 13 and developing boobs at the same time?

Whatever happened to highschool girls looking 15 instead of 30?

I guess life happened and before I knew it, I was classified old and unhip. I have moved onto the age where I can only imagine life being the way it was when I was a kid and that is something I said I would never do. "No, Chance in Hell will I ever grow an old mindset."

Well there was a Chance and I am living it......and yes, my generation did give America all the best stuff, but give me a break for saying that. I'm OLD.

Hot Cup O' Joe

I know!!! I know!!! I said I wouldn't become a Seattlelite, but I find myself liking the Cafe Ole' more each day. Some mornings I long for it's rich, bold mocha flavor. I need to get off the stuff.

As a kid I remember looking at my G'ma and Mom and thinking "Yuck, I hate coffee, I'm never gonna drink that stuff." Yet here I am feigning for the delectable drink of life. I will say that I am to blame for the Starbucks demise. I don't partake in their nastiness; no, I go to this small joint on the way to work that makes their mocha's with chocolate milk. It is pure heaven in a recycled paper cup. Not only are they inventive with their mocha mixes, but also environmentally friendly and you gotta love that with Gas being 350 a gall. Oh!!!! Lest me not forget a 12oz.er is only $2 and the Nasty bean burned Starbucks Mocha is like $5. Bonus! That will give me about 1 gall. extra of petrolatum.

Apparently, according to CNN Petrolatum is of such short supply that they feel they need to further the economic hardship of America by raising the barrel prices by the small amount of 110.00. WHAT!!!!!

If the airlines keep raising prices due to Petro. people will stop flying and stop buying airplanes and then POOF!!!! I will be bankrupt. Then be in the depths of despair and depression and be at SV WEST making my friends pockets fatter. Oh!! Sorry guys did I digress.

Coffee, I just love coffee w/ International Delight Chocolate, Carmel Creamer. Mmmmm!!!!! So Good.

Oh!!! Please leave comments, I love comments.

All Over The Place

Rock Chalk championship!!!!!!

This morning I am just plain tired. My throat is scratchy and my eyes burn and I WOULDN'T TRADE IT FOR ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!

I must admit that during the last two minutes of the game I became emotional!!! College Hoops are a part of life in my family and last night after many years of anticipation and disappointment those HAWKS ROCKED CHALK!!!!

M2 said she saw boobs and moons lastnight and I am jealous. If by the grace of God I could have been on Mass. street last night. These bodacious very well used (by two kids) ta-tas would have been beaming bright for all the world to see.

And in past words regarding K Heinen: I would have

"Got real drunk and hurt her leg
Now she's back for another keg"

That's how my night would have gone.....

Agitated

I am increasingly agitated today, because I have been riding the earlier train and it is just too busy. I have had to be at work early the past two weeks, and will be resuming my regular schedule next Monday, thank GOD!!!!! I need my normal freaks back.

I saw Cabaret this weekend and although the costumes were amazing and the MC was right on, I was constantly uncomfortable because my mom(who is in town for 2wks) is so conservative that I was uneasy because of some of the content. I paid big $ for those tickets and I could tell that she didn't really appreciate the show. Oh!!! Well, you win some you lose some.

This is random section of my blog.
I know this person who still wears hair wings. I know that "wings" are perfect for other feminine things, but hair is not one of them. She wears rings on everyone of her fingers and has those "artistic nails." EWWWW!!!!! Can someone please tell me if this also bothers them? Please let me know, is this my mental illness or is this something truly gross.

People here are not avid college basketball fans and this March I have missed home a lot. The atmosphere in KS is so alive during basketball season. I miss the fans and the constant buzz and most of all, I regret not being there on quite possibly one of the most "crazy, fanatic, fantastic, out of control nights" in Lawrence history. I will be watching from the comfort of my own home in the most "non-basketball" city around.

Tonight I will truly be "Sleepless in Seattle"

This is so Random

I ate at the best Chinese restaurant today. Seattle doesn't really have Chinese restaurants like the midwest. It is mostly teriayaki joints around here so this was a huge treat. Three months ago I decided I was too fat and I needed to do something about so I started excercising and watching me diet. Let me tell you something.....I was like a pig at the trough today. You couldn't get me away from the Buffet line for anything and I even had a coke. OMG!!!! It was soooooo good. I haven't had good Chinese food in a year.

It was bliss?

P.S. My belly hurts.

I forgot to Mention

Last night we went to a Mariners Baseball game and didn't get to bed until 12:30. OMG!!!!!! My eyes are blood shot, burning and ready to just close. I haven't stayed out that late on a work night in 10years.

I am so exhausted. This will definately prove as a reminder of how really old I have become.

I'm cranky and irritable and I better go before I write something bad about my co-worker.

This wasn't meant for Seriousness

I told myself that when I started this blog it wasn't going to get personal or too cheesy, but today I just can't help it.

I really miss being a stay-at-home mom. Sure being a part of the adult world is great and it's nice to be doing my own thing again, but I miss being with my kids.

OMG

So I thought it would be incredibly funny to pull a prank on my husband today. Afterall it is April Fools. I knew going in that he wouldn't believe me, so I made up this outlandish story about me being nauseated, over-tired and peeing all the time. I told him I had popped a positive PG test and he believed me.

I think he was about to have an anxiety attack because he was im'ing me constantly saying he had heartburn and what are going to do...we never planned for three kids...OMG!!!! You have to get to the doctor....what doctor are you seeing.....on and on and on.

April Fool's Sucka