Excuse me, but are you fat or what....

Yes, I am fat. I have totally let myself go for far too long. Now i'm afraid it is too late to get my old self back. Not only have a gained 80lbs. (yes that is right) in the past 3 years, but I have also grown an unusually nasty attitude. WTF!!!!!!

To be honest I didn't realize what I looked like to other people until I saw a picture of myself. AHHHH!!!! So Scary. It made me so sad I just burst into tears. I know that my mental health has drastically changed and how I view myself has gotten so misguided, but I still have'nt done much about it. I have compiled a list of the top 5 reasons that I have gotten so fat.

1. McDonalds
2. McDonalds
3. McDonalds
4. Laziness
5. Having a baby and making excuses regarding "the baby blues" and its contribution to my weight problem.

I know that having this weight is complety unhealthy, but I am addicted. I have grown an addiction to fast food. I love it.... I really do. Rarely used to eat three years ago, don't know what happened.

In January I made the committment to makeover my "food" life. I decided to ban myself from fast food and surprisingly enough. It has worked. I must admit that I have had it occasionally, you know a burger here and there, but can you blame me. Yum!!!

I have decided that inorder to reep the rewards of making over my diet, it is time to start excercising. Starting tomorrow I am going to start going to work out over my lunch. I am dreading this so much. Just having to get ready again and put on makeup and hose and trousers and all that jazz, just doesn't please me, but I must do something and by God!! I am so tired of saying that I am going to do something and then never do it.

Wish me luck!!!! The beauty about being human and living in America is that we can do whatever we want and be whomever we choose.