Playing Catch-Up

Let’s play catch up. I know I have been the ultimate bad blogger and once again I will use the excuse that I have been in a funk lately. If it makes any sense at all I could say that the truth is I am lazy and extremely busy all at the same time. And, although I live in one of the most fantastic places in the U.S., I am really homesick. I would love to be home with my family and friends during the holidays, but for now it is just not a possibility.

I won’t lie I really miss the “Midwest” life. I am grateful that my children will get to experience all that life has to offer, but sometimes I wonder if this high paced lifestyle is really worth it? Is the money worth it? Are they happy without their mom home? Will I lose my job with all the economic turmoil? Are we headed for devastating times? What will happen to them?

Negative and worried you must think I am, but really I am just a realist at heart. I am told it is to a fault, but I can’t help but think our day in the sunshine has come to pass and now we must walk in the shadows for awhile. I don’t worry about me. I worry about my two little ones. I worry that this life they are accustom to will change drastically and there might come a time when I can’t even provide the necessities.

I know that I am definitely lacking in the spirituality department and that I good use a healthy portion of “Jesus”. I need worship and to become involved again. I need the positive energy and the loving home you find when you are a part of a church home. I want my children to have that. I had that growing up and I think my adolescent life was much easier for it. Churches are a rare thing here and if you find one they are usually a little kooky. I have been to one I enjoy several times and think I need to become a regular.

On the upside I started a mini-physical makeover 6 weeks ago which has been taking up the majority of my time and guess what: Drum Roll Please-I have lost 18lbs. Only a buttload more to go, but hey it is a start.

Write again soon