It's official I have a breast tumor..... Per the radiologist she assumes it is a fibroadenomas benign connective tissue tumor and that it has a 90% probablitlity of being benign.
WHAT!!!! I am only (almost) 31.... And the way you said 90% was not very convincing.. and you want me to what... have it removed? Whoa this is all too much. My GYN was almost positive that it was a cyst. Now you say that infact it is a tumor. Okay so what are my options? Stop trying to sound optimistic and give it to me straight. I am not a optimist, I am a realist and I want to know the score.
Even if it is benign women who have had these types of tumors are at extreme risk for developing Breast Cancer in the future and due to my Grandmother's diagnosis at 39 I am pretty much SCREWED!!!!!
For now we take it one step at a time and pray just pray that I am not one of the 10%!!!!!
Step 1: GYN to set up an appt. with the Breast Surgeon.
BTW!!! The mammogram wasn't that bad and I was in awe of the awesome pic. it took. Truly amazing
Monday, June 30, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008
100 Dollar Bill Yo....
If you live in Washington then you know of the store REI. It is a really cool co-op that sells high end outdoor gear and is truly for the outdoor enthusiast. My husband is really becoming an avid cyclist so I decide to treat him to a new pair of biking gloves and went to REI. 130.00 later I walk out with 2 pairs of sandals for my kids, a water bottle and gloves. OMG!!!! They are so spoiled.
I need to be saving the "Next Great Depression", which just happens to be creeping up on us and I am buying shoes and gloves.
You can't eat shoes and gloves.
I need to be saving the "Next Great Depression", which just happens to be creeping up on us and I am buying shoes and gloves.
You can't eat shoes and gloves.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Walk for the Cure
I walked in an amazing event this weekend, "The Race For the Cure". It was truly brilliant and extremely inspiring and it really made me stop and think of my life and how blessed I am to have such a good one. It was held a Qwest Field (Where the Seattle Seahawks Play) and there were thousands of people in attendance, in fact it took us 1.5hrs to walk 3.5 miles because the amount of people walking. Some of the more memorable team names were:
1. SAVE THE TA TA's
2. THE ITTY BITTY TITTY COMMITTEE
3. THANKS FOR THE MAMMORIES
4. BABES FOR BOOBS
5. WALKERS FOR KNOCKERS (My personal favorite)
As I looked around the stadium on Saturday I could see many women who had on the pink survivor's t-shirt and thought that could be me. I couldn't help but think about my life and it's value and what I have done to truly make a contribution in my children's life and what they would remember most about me if I were gone. Now that I am working again I feel that I don't get to contribute as much time to them as I would like and it breaks my heart to know that I could have done more when I stayed home. My plan is to only work part-time when Jenson starts middle school and Sophie starts Kindergarten. I just feel this overwhelming need to be there then.
When I walked into the facility before the race I went to the booth and picked up my shirt flag that stated that I was walking in memory of my grandmother. She lost her battle with breast cancer when I was 14 and to this day I still remember the struggles and her courageous fight to live. As I was safety pinning the flag to my shirt I couldn't help but become emotional. As my eyes welled with tears I said a prayer for all those who have had breast cancer and for those who will have breast cancer. I don't completely know my family history as my grandmother was adopted, but I can only pray that I am spared that burden to bear.
Two weeks ago I found a lump in my right breast. I am sure that it is nothing, just a cyst, but I can't help but think about the "what if's" and being at the walk this Saturday really brought those feeling to the surface. Because I am under 40 I have to have both an ultrasound and a mammogram next Monday. I am not looking forward to the appointment, but I know that it is something I must do and I have a feeling everything is going to be okay. If the news is not as positive as I expect it to be I will be quite shocked.
As I leave for today I just ask that throughout this week you say a prayer for all the haves and the have nots and maybe just maybe we will find a cure.
1. SAVE THE TA TA's
2. THE ITTY BITTY TITTY COMMITTEE
3. THANKS FOR THE MAMMORIES
4. BABES FOR BOOBS
5. WALKERS FOR KNOCKERS (My personal favorite)
As I looked around the stadium on Saturday I could see many women who had on the pink survivor's t-shirt and thought that could be me. I couldn't help but think about my life and it's value and what I have done to truly make a contribution in my children's life and what they would remember most about me if I were gone. Now that I am working again I feel that I don't get to contribute as much time to them as I would like and it breaks my heart to know that I could have done more when I stayed home. My plan is to only work part-time when Jenson starts middle school and Sophie starts Kindergarten. I just feel this overwhelming need to be there then.
When I walked into the facility before the race I went to the booth and picked up my shirt flag that stated that I was walking in memory of my grandmother. She lost her battle with breast cancer when I was 14 and to this day I still remember the struggles and her courageous fight to live. As I was safety pinning the flag to my shirt I couldn't help but become emotional. As my eyes welled with tears I said a prayer for all those who have had breast cancer and for those who will have breast cancer. I don't completely know my family history as my grandmother was adopted, but I can only pray that I am spared that burden to bear.
Two weeks ago I found a lump in my right breast. I am sure that it is nothing, just a cyst, but I can't help but think about the "what if's" and being at the walk this Saturday really brought those feeling to the surface. Because I am under 40 I have to have both an ultrasound and a mammogram next Monday. I am not looking forward to the appointment, but I know that it is something I must do and I have a feeling everything is going to be okay. If the news is not as positive as I expect it to be I will be quite shocked.
As I leave for today I just ask that throughout this week you say a prayer for all the haves and the have nots and maybe just maybe we will find a cure.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
In My Opinion...
Women seem to rant and rave about why they do not want to be treated like sex objects and all that jazz, but I have found that many women welcome the attention.
I can't help but be bombarded with cleavage spills each time I go out. Women you have boobs just pour out and those who don't show off what they have generously.
What in the world. I am a women. I see my boobs everday and am quite used to them. If I notice the spillage then the guy who doesn't see anything but man boobs is definately going to notice those TA-TA's.
In my opinion: show a little modesty.
There you have it.
I can't help but be bombarded with cleavage spills each time I go out. Women you have boobs just pour out and those who don't show off what they have generously.
What in the world. I am a women. I see my boobs everday and am quite used to them. If I notice the spillage then the guy who doesn't see anything but man boobs is definately going to notice those TA-TA's.
In my opinion: show a little modesty.
There you have it.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
I know... I know...
Why do I lie to you guys and tell you I will post more when I don't... I mean to post, I really do, but I am so busy these days.
My man and I went to Victoria B.C. this weekend. It was a much needed break, but I really missed the kids.
I started this Blog to be all about me and my oddities, thoughts and opinions, but I have discovered that above all I am a mom and my universe really does revolve around my kids. I will continue to post about the aforementioned items, but I just might surprise you and throw something in about my rugrats. I am pretty stingy about the information I will put out there because I am possessive with them... MINE MINE MINE!!!!!; however, you never know what I might share.
I might share the time that sister told me that "she wuv me with all her heart" while squeezing my face and giving me an open mouth kiss. (two year old saliva... mmmm! tasty)
Or the time when brother was four and said that the lady at the convenience store counter "sounded like an old western".... followed up by "Mom she sounds just like the duke, does she use cigarettes sticks?"
You would have to know me, to know that my children are going to be quite possibly the coolest kids ever. Witty, beautiful, intelligent, stubborn and have a set of excellent sensibilities. Yes, the take after their mother.
Better go work. Bye
My man and I went to Victoria B.C. this weekend. It was a much needed break, but I really missed the kids.
I started this Blog to be all about me and my oddities, thoughts and opinions, but I have discovered that above all I am a mom and my universe really does revolve around my kids. I will continue to post about the aforementioned items, but I just might surprise you and throw something in about my rugrats. I am pretty stingy about the information I will put out there because I am possessive with them... MINE MINE MINE!!!!!; however, you never know what I might share.
I might share the time that sister told me that "she wuv me with all her heart" while squeezing my face and giving me an open mouth kiss. (two year old saliva... mmmm! tasty)
Or the time when brother was four and said that the lady at the convenience store counter "sounded like an old western".... followed up by "Mom she sounds just like the duke, does she use cigarettes sticks?"
You would have to know me, to know that my children are going to be quite possibly the coolest kids ever. Witty, beautiful, intelligent, stubborn and have a set of excellent sensibilities. Yes, the take after their mother.
Better go work. Bye
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Absentee
Rest assured that I will be blogging more in the future. I promise for all of my
(3) readers that you will have tantalizing tidbits to talk about around your watercooler soon.
I will pose one question for you three to comtemplate. What is up with the toe nail art? Is this becoming a fad in the KS or just in the WA!!!! I can't stand it. All these flowers adorning the toes of sandal clad women on the four sunny days we've had since March. I believe a nice pedicure is sufficient, but rhinestones and magnolia's, come on. Plus you know they are all going to those nail chop shops and could be getting cottage cheese fungus as we speak. When you can get a mani and a pedi for $40. There is something that your not paying for and that is sterilization. This is a public service announcement: If the nail tech has to wear a mask when they are providing services, then you are probably exposing yourself to products with extremely high levels of TOXIC WASTE!!!!
If any of you have any comments please feel free to post your thoughts. I am the only one who hates nail art? Let me know.
(3) readers that you will have tantalizing tidbits to talk about around your watercooler soon.
I will pose one question for you three to comtemplate. What is up with the toe nail art? Is this becoming a fad in the KS or just in the WA!!!! I can't stand it. All these flowers adorning the toes of sandal clad women on the four sunny days we've had since March. I believe a nice pedicure is sufficient, but rhinestones and magnolia's, come on. Plus you know they are all going to those nail chop shops and could be getting cottage cheese fungus as we speak. When you can get a mani and a pedi for $40. There is something that your not paying for and that is sterilization. This is a public service announcement: If the nail tech has to wear a mask when they are providing services, then you are probably exposing yourself to products with extremely high levels of TOXIC WASTE!!!!
If any of you have any comments please feel free to post your thoughts. I am the only one who hates nail art? Let me know.
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